Sun in 15° Sagittarius
Waning Moon in 28° Leo
8:22am – Back in the saddle after taking a Sabbath day yesterday to recover from a Seven of Cups-style debauch on the night of Venus. Woke naturally about 7:47am, which seems to be the time the body clock is set to. Made the morning adoration, then coffee and cold water on the face.
Two weeks to the Winter Solstice, interview with ToTSS tomorrow evening. I will devote the next thirty-six hours to the articulation of questions, and contemplation, that I may answer any questions they have of me truthfully.
9:13am – LBRP, MP, 15 minutes of meditation.
The message that seems to come through is the centrality of thought, with word and action being thought more densely formed, manifest, crystallized. A related idea that comes through is how the “self” as we conceive of it is a creature of illusion, a ghost in the machine, a formation which is born and dies. And yet there is individuality, the starry essence, the unique vibration of each individuality: Will, Word, expressed in matter as this phenomena we call a “self”, and yet transcendent, unborn, undying. How might we unveil this starry Self? Magick and Yoga: enflaming oneself in prayer (directed thought), abiding in stillness and the great silence beneath the waves of thought.
The “natural” state of third-density seems to be a display of illusion, consciousness pushed and pulled on the surface until at last the Will fires and the star says I am, I will be. Then the Work begins consciously. All must be grounded in deep and abiding Love. Love is the law, love under will.
12:58pm. Noon adoration, a bit on the late side, but to compensate stepped out of doors, where the Sun still appears near the zenith.
4:05pm – Made a lunch of leftover carnitas and then took a walk to get some exercise and enjoy the warm sun and crisp air of the autumn afternoon. Then napped a bit, showered and have made tea. Now to resume the contemplation on motivation, and questions.
5:34 – Have finished the written contemplation to examine and articulate my motives for applying to TotSS. Paused to step outside to make the evening adoration.
10:32am – Made dinner, watched Amistad, sat down at about 9pm to contemplate questions for the interview comes. Only a few basic questions come. LBRP, ALU, 15 minutes of meditation. Will retire to bed now.